“God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.” - James 1:12 NLT
College alumni have made me become very familiar with the term “Post-grad depression”. The Washington Post defined it as:
The extreme sadness and impaired functioning that recent grads report after they leave behind the world they created in college.
I’ve witnessed this through my older sister constantly reminding me to take advantage of the “best four years” of my life. Also through the tweets of past academic year students sharing their own personal memories and the many detailed ways of just how “different” campus has become.
Even sometimes in first interactions with older people and I mention I’m a college student, their nostalgia begins to beam through their tone and initially stiff posture. It’s as if the mention of “college” is the passageway to opening up the memories of a better time before the harsh reality of true adulthood came knocking at their door. But as I’m in my last semester of college, I believe there really is such a thing as pre-grad depression. My definition:
Heightened anxiety and sadness of what the future holds after getting your degree.
For seniors, this is the time where the questioning of your career goals has turned from a conversation starter at holiday functions to the number one question that you can’t seem to escape now. You answer the daunting question, but is your spirit set in that answer or has your response become you being a broken record player?
As someone that’s pursuing a career that doesn’t have a clear set path, it can become frustrating that after almost four years I don’t have a set in stone game plan. The question of “Why am I here?” has swarmed my mind countless times. The self-disappointment at times has pushed me away from the reason I began college in the first place which is my passion of writing.
And, maybe you also see that happening with your own passions and you’ve only solely dedicated your time to boosting your GPA because it’ll “look good” on future applications. But it’s important to not get wrapped up in the expectations that others have for you because, yes your stamina and work ethic are growing, but is your passion itself dying at that expense?
This is a reminder to not lose sight of what you truly love which ultimately in the end guides you to your dream. Also, what I can help remind myself and other seniors graduating in the spring is that you didn’t make it through all these years to fail despite what that voice in your head may be telling you. Continue to work hard, assert your faith to everything you touch these next few months and watch God’s grace overflow over your life.
You’re more than well-equipped with everything you need to succeed, but are you willing to push aside those thoughts of doubt, fear and isolation, be vulnerable with the Lord and let Him take control when your own vision is unclear? You’re almost at the end of the finish line. Let Him cross with you and in turn receive all the glory for it.